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Name: Scottie
Location: Independence, Missouri, United States
Birthday: 12/1/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: My interests are God (first above anything else!), then friends, then singing, then gaming...and in that order. Unless I'm in a really bad mood...then singing MIGHT come before friends...but not likely.
Expertise: Y'know, I don't really think that I could be called an expert at anything. I'm good at a lot of things, but I don't think I could be called an expert. So there ya go.
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  ff8master_9999@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  scottie19892000
Member Since:
10/8/2005
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| Life is so BORING! Occasionally I have a busy weekend, but for the most part, I'm always bored....  Warrensburg has nothing interesting to do except get drunk at a bar. Plus I have no money because I don't have a stupid job. And I can't get a stupid job because I'm going to be gone so much this summer plus all the other stupid college people have the stupid jobs. Bah.... I need money...and something to do. I'm going to lose my mind if I can't find something to do.....
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| You know what's AWESOME!!???!?! College! You know what's MORE AWESOME!?!??!!!?! GIRLS!!!
Just kidding. I haven't actually gone crazy if that's what you're wondering.  Heh, Xanga is so old. ...and yet, I still keep coming back. Oldie but Goodie I suppose.
Life...is pretty awesome.  Living in Warrensburg right now with Joe Johnson, going to UCM and just hanging around.  I don't have a job, sadly, but I guess that just means I have more time to concentrate on my classes. After not taking anything last semester and just working, I'm VERY happy to have gotten back into college. Plus I like a traditional college WAY more than I did community college. Plus it's not <i>too</i> far away from home, so I can still go back on weekends, which I do. Mom usually buys me food, then I have quartet practice on Sunday mornings.
Speaking of quartets, HOA is GAY!!!  They know how good Stepping Stones is, and <i>still</i> they're only giving us ONE song on their annual show! How retarded is that!? What kinda crap?! It would take just about as much time for them to announce us and for us to get on/off stage as it will to actually sing it! I understood only getting one song last year since we were newly formed and hadn't even competed in a CSD competition yet, but seriously, we've been around for 14-15 months now, we've been in one comp and are headed back in a few months, AND we know for a FACT that we're going to score at least 5 points higher than we did last year! That's how much better we've gotten! But do they give up more than one song? NO! Psh, screw HOA. CS is better anyway.
On top of everything awesome going on in my life, I think I've also gotten used to not having a girlfriend again. It sounds stupid...but it really has taken this long. I still miss having a girlfriend I guess...I just don't miss <i>her</i>. Hmmm...maybe that's not even a good thing afterall. i don't know. All I can say is that I feel a lot better and much less pressured. Sure there are still people I like, one inparticular, but hey, what kinda guy would I be if I DIDN'T like someone at the moment?
Classes: Mon/Wed/Fri: 9 am: College Algebra (boring)
10 am: Experiencing Music (as if I never have)
11 am: Composition II (actually a really enjoyable class)
Tue/Thur: 9:30 am: American History Post Civil War (all about politics and is very boring)
11 am: Sociology (pretty interesting...but kinda boring at the same time)
There you go, all my classes. I'm out by noon almost everyday, then I have ALL afternoon to hang around and do homework. It's pretty nice. Just wish I had internet in my apartment so I would have to be sitting here in the Cafeteria with my laptop. Nancy said she'd pay for getting internet in my apartment, which would be awesome, I just didn't really have time to talk to her this weekend about it. Oh well, maybe next weekend. Or maybe I'll call her, I haven't decided yet. Did I mention I'm a terrible speller?
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| Do you ever just wish that it would all stop? Everything that keeps coming after you. Everything that pulls you down, makes you feel like you're always wrong or that you can never move forward. Do you ever wish that you could just get away? And not just for a day or a week like a vacation, but actually get away from everything. Everything you've ever known, ever had to deal with. Become a completely different person. Leave everyone and everything that your current work makes you who you are and just because someone completely new somewhere completely different. Meet new people who don't know you. Find a new place to live with new neighbors. Get a different job far far away. Somewhere where you could make yourself who you really want to be. You wouldn't have to be held back by the views of those around. You wouldn't be letting anyone down if you didn't live up to what they thought. You wouldn't have to be right or wrong with every one of your decisions. It's people that make something right or wrong. A person can do anything and be neither right nor wrong. It's when a person does something to, with, against, or involving another person in some way that something actually has to be either right or wrong. Even different people view different things as right. In a different society, a different world, right could be to murder your neighbor in the wake of a disturbance; right could be to not drive unless intoxicated. What are we to say what right is when so many things could be right under the correct circumstances, in the correct space or time. We cannot. For us to say what is right is as to putting ourselves above what we are. To claim supremacy over what we are bound to be by this flesh and blood. And yet, we still do so everyday, each and every one of us. I am so tired of such. No one can be judge over someone equal with himself, only toward those whom he is over of above. But people in general are too stupid to realize this. Too many people wander around in their perfect of imperfect little lives condemning those around them and refusing to look inward. Everyone has flaws. Some more and other less, but everyone still has flaws. Even the same flaws. There are no new ills today that did not exist yesterday. And yet, even when someone might come out and admit their flaws, they are again condemned. Condemned for committing the crime, condemned for confessing the crime, condemned for even being willing to change. The world is sick and terrible...and I want no place in it.
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| I realized today that my Xanga actually tells me how long it's been since I joined. 1426 days. That's almost 4 years. Heh, man a lot changes in 4 years. 4 years I was starting my Sophmore year in high school. Crazy stuff. So much has happened. I've met so many people that have touched my life in some way. I had a lot less friends, a lot less people I could trust. I didn't know myself as well. I didn't know what I was doing or where I wanted to be going. I had a lot of ideas that were completely wrong. There are just so many things that have changed since then. It's amazing that I can still claim to be me. Or maybe I'm not me anymore. Maybe I'm just a completely different person. I'd probably think I was absolutely annoying if I had to hang out with myself from 4 years ago. I'd probably...be disappointed in myself if 4 years ago I had to hang out with myself from now. Hmmm.... | | |
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